It's over!

So last night was Bryan's bday so I drove in to Baton Rouge to have dinner with his parents and us. I didn't feel 100% so I wasn't up to being my friendly self. Sorry about that Bryan's parents. They don't read the blog but putting it out there makes me feel better. He ended up inviting a friend and his girlfriend. It would have been nice to have dinner with just his parents since we've only been around them when they are tailgating and that means drinking heavily. We've been dating on and off for almost two years and this was the first time we'd been to dinner with his parents. I think that is a sign of where our relationship is and would be going.

Well, this morning I broke up with Bryan. I know all of you think it's for the better. I guess you've seen me happy and sad but mostly sad. I know my decision is the right one because it just hasn't been very good the last couple of months but it still hurts like hell. We broke up in August for a while and I took him back b/c he said we'd go to therapy. Never happened. I guess it wasn't meant to be b/c if someone loves you enough they move the moon for you. They treat you like a queen. They make every effort to make you happy. Am I right? I fell in love with a guy that wrote me love letters, sent me cute texts, wrote me love emails and called to talk to me constantly. I don't get that anymore. I know that he might really love me but he doesn't know how to appreciate the best damn thing that ever happened to him. I was his biggest cheerleader no matter what was going on in his life. How could someone not be happy with me? I'm beautiful, smart, sexy, funny, warm, nice and successful. I know I sound full of myself but I need the peptalk right now. I've seen the dating pool in New Orleans and it isn't pretty.
I'm going to focus on myself for the next couple of months so if anyone of you want to take a trip let me know so we can plan one. I could really use a Carribean getaway right now.